Monday, July 18, 2011

Secret Confessions- I'm a Food Addict

Today as I was eating my kosher bun-less hotdog during our restaurant's family meal, one of the cooks looked at me and said
"No bun?? You need carbs for energy, did you know Dr. Atkins died at 55?"
I said "bread and pasta are slow burning and actually provide no energy, that's why I'm eating asparagus and eggplant because those are actual energy carbs" 
She looked at me bewildered, I further explained I get my carbs and subsequent energy from fruits and veggies.  She replied, " I had no idea fruits and veggies were carbs"

Yet she knew that Dr. Atkins died at age 55.  This is what scares me.  This is what keeps me up at night.  This and standing behind the obese woman in kroger with her obese child and her cart filled with horrendous food, thinking that her whole grain bread is better than white bread.  It's not only a lack of education its a a product of the industry flat out lying to people and its freaking sad.

Do you want to know what's more sad than that?  The fact that I have the knowledge (however little it may be) and I still eat horrible foods.  Why? I'm a food addict.  And even more specific I'm a "moment" addict.  Which is even more frightening in terms of life choices.

I'm an impulse addict.  And it has never seemed like such a problem until I gained 80lbs.  And I think I've learned that it is not isolated to just food.  It crosses every single aspect of my life.  It controls me and it causes me to make poor decisions despite having all the necessary knowledge to change.  And that makes me worse off than the fat ladies at Kroger: I know better...

So as I go along my journey and realize that it is not just about the food I eat but how and why I eat and how each day exercising a little bit of control of impulse in every part of my everyday decision making I can gain the practice and discipline to transfer over to my diet and my exercise.

And just for the record let me just say one more time that grains are not good for you in any way whatsoever.  No they don't have fiber that you can even use.  They are sugar.  Period.  Whew..

Let me also say that today I stared at a plate of brownies while eating asparagus and I think it made it a little easier...

1 comment:

  1. My friend jokes that she has her family trait of being an emotional eater. Sad- eat, Depressed-eat, Happy-eat, pretty much any emotion-eat! =]

    I didn't know that about Dr. Atkins, but most people also don't realize which of the "vegetables" are actually starches. And the only thing they read on the nutrition label is the calorie count!!

    We are trying to consume very little sugar and grain carbs (I know, I know, but baby steps), smaller portions, and half the plate is a green vegetable. This is all a HUGE improvement and all accomplished with little to no grumbling.

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